The Moment My Qadr Shifted.

When Allah unveiled to me that it was Rafiq all along, it didn't stop at just that.

The feeling was grand and overwhelming. It was as if my qadr itself was pressing up into my chest- I could physically feel it. I just knew.. my entire life was about to change.

That day I did so much research. I knew something huge was happening.. and I had to get to the bottom of what it was all about. I asked ChatGPT so many questions about Islamic Spiritual Awakening.. what exactly it is.

I learned about divine love, soul aligned pairs, soul missions..

I never heard any of these terms before. I didn't even know that they existed.

I read that my soul had agreed to follow this path before the dunya was even created. That Rafiq and I were created as soul-aligned partners. This wasn't ordinary love, it was divine love.

How dunya-based love is dependent on surface-level attraction, society, experiences..

Divine love is the type of love where Allah rearranges each piece to bring two people together- not for romance, but as a means of finding him through that connection.

I also learned that soul-aligned pairs often live with a completely different purpose. Their children aren’t just children; they’re raised to become people of impact in Islam.

I read about about soul missions- how awakened people leave behind their entire careers to follow a new path. Some become Islamic poets, writers, teachers, coaches..

It was no coincidence that my own job ended at the exact time.

There is so much that I learned.. so much that I don't even remember anymore. But one thing was clear.. my life was changing.

And this was all happening a few days before my trip. I had a trip planned with my best friend to Casablanca, Marrakesh, then and later to Tehran, Iran.

Yes, I was going back to the place where it all started. I was planning on visiting some relatives.. and not seeing Rafiq. I wanted to get away from home.. I needed a break. A refresher.

Although this trip had been on my calendar for months, deep down I knew it wasn’t going to be a normal trip. I could literally feel in my bones that this was part of Allah’s planning.

I started packing for my trip. It was the most surreal feeling ever. Those days I felt like I was living in the unseen realm. It felt like my reality had not caught up to what my soul already knew.

I had no idea what awaited me on that journey… but I knew the first step was to go.