Paris And The Warnings.

I started getting signs for Paris and for a small French city called Strasbourg. I knew it meant something, but I kept ignoring it off.

But the more I ignored it, the louder the signs became.. Until one night, I decided to book the ticket for Paris.

I planned to go by myself. My first solo trip ever. It was going to be a week long trip.

Three days in Paris.

Three in Strasbourg.

I packed my bags with zero idea what Allah had planned for me.

But the moment I got to the airport, the energy shifted-sharply.

It hit me like a wave.

"Danger"

"Play"

"Game"

"Two-Faced"

"Cheater"

"Liar"

"Bad"

"Traitor"

"Warning"

"Cap"

"Ran"

and the big one.... "Rat".

I froze.

My stomach dropped.

I had no idea who these signs were even about. Were they about Rafiq? Or someone else close to me?

My mind spiraled. I spent the entire flight anxious, and by the time I landed in Iceland for my layover, I was quietly panicking.

What if these signs were literal?

What if he actually betrayed me?

What if he had lied?

What if there was something he hid from me the whole time?

Was he lying about something or hiding something all along?

I never even considered this to be something real. I was so shocked at how suddenly Allah flipped the signs.

I spent the entire Paris + Strasbourg trip seeing these bad signs.. all over my hotel room, on store names, on boards, busses, etc. The word "Rat" I saw the most.

There was one moment that hit me especially hard.

I sat down with a Coca Cola can I realized it was "Cherry Cola" -- which if you remember, is our sign from the time I stayed at his house in Tehran. My heart felt warm seeing that..

Then I turned the Coca Cola can around.

And all I saw was a huge, bold:

“RAT.”

The moment was killed.

I felt fear, confusion, heartbreak-all mixed together. How was Allah showing me this?Was He warning me about Rafiq? Did he do something? Was something coming that would break me?

This was someone I truly believed I knew… someone I had fallen for deeply.

My first few days in paris was filled with confusiong, questions, and fea.. because of these signs.