My Cocoon Phase.

I was staying at my cousin's house and my "cocoon" phase had started.

The cocoon phase is simple to explain.

It’s like when a butterfly retreats into a cocoon- developing, changing, reorganizing, but all of it happens invisibly.

For me- it's when absolutely nothing is happen for a very long time.

It's hard.

Days pass.

Weeks pass.

And I sit here realizing that everything is exactly the same..

My heart feels stuck- but so does my life.

Externally, nothing moves. Internally, nothing settles.

It's the worst feeling.

Especially having the most intense awakening ever with colors, signs, dreams, etc.

And then comes the silence of life..

No job, no love, no movement at all..

It feels like I’m suspended in time, waiting without knowing what I’m waiting for.

That's my life now. I don't know how long it will last, but this is just the beginning of it.