My Business Idea.

Well- I did not see this coming.

I feel like I got hit with an idea out of nowhere.

As you know, I’ve been making tasbihs for the past few months.

At first, it was just two. Then slowly I kept making more. Once a week or so. I told myself they were for me. That this was just a way to increase my dhikr. Something to do while I sit in stillness. A quiet hobby.

This went on for few months actually..

Then after I went to Casablanca the second time around, I got the idea to come back and start making mini sized tasbihs. I went from making full 99 beaded tasbihs, to half-size 33 beaded ones, then to kids size 15 beaded ones.

And I kept making more. Especially after moving back into my parents’ house

A few days ago another thought crossed my mind- Ramadan is next month. It’s the perfect time for Muslims to do dhikr. Most people become more intentional during Ramadan than any other month.

I wasn't trying to gain anything. My idea was simple: make tasbihs and give them away for free at local masjids. I was already making them.

Why not make more?

So I went ahead and bought more beads, more string and started making more.

And as I made them, I kept telling myself: This is only for free. There’s no plan beyond this. I’ll drop them off and that’s it.

Then today an idea kept popping up in my mind.

Clip-on tasbihs.

The idea has been floating in my head for months, but I kept brushing it off.

It’s funny because I once had leftover beads and a swivel lobster clasp. I strung them together and hooked them onto my backpack when I went to Casablanca. At the airport, my friend asked if it was a “tasbih for on the go.”

Before that, my cousin saw my wristlet strap attached to my keychain and asked, “Is this a tasbih?”

I laughed at the time.

I was surprised that she thought it was a tasbih. It was just a wristlet strap lol.

I thought nothing of it.

But now, looking back… it feels like pieces of a puzzle being placed long before I saw the picture.

Earlier today, I finally gave in. I went to the store and bought a bunch of clasps. Way more beads than I’ve ever bought before.

I kept questioning myself:

Why am I making so many?

Full size.Half size.Kids size.Now keychain ones.

I had zero intention of making money from this. Yet I kept going.

Tonight, while making the keychain tasbihs, the thought came back stronger than ever.

A tasbih business.

I resisted it so much.. resisted the idea of a tasbih business.

But I just don't know why- tonight, it felt right.

I know people already sell tasbihs. But I genuinely feel like I have something unique- especially the kids tasbihs and the clip-on tasbihs. The “on the go” concept. Something that can clip onto your keys or bag. Something you won’t lose. Something that quietly reminds you throughout your day.

Researching.

Thinking of a name.

Creating a logo.

Opening social media accounts.

Designing business cards.

All in one night.

And here’s the crazy part-

I have no money right now.

In this moment, I don't have any more money left to buy more beads.. to do anything at all.

But I just don't know why my heart wants to take the chance. To take the leap of faith.

I don't know why- it just feels right.

I kept feeling so much regret in my heart. That when I had so much money before, when I had stability, when I had time and energy..

Why didn’t I think of this then? Why didn’t I prepare? Why didn’t I invest earlier?

So many questions.

So much regret.

And so many ideas running through my head about what I could build now.

I even started thinking about including my sister in this somehow.

And you know what’s even crazier?

A few months ago, my sister and I went on a trip and she ended up buying a light saber from Disneyland and bringing it back to our home.

And my business name is “Held With Sabr.”

Sabr.

Saber.

Was that a sign?

I don't know lol.

Anyhow-

I still plan on giving the tasbihs I made away for free for Ramadan at the masjids.. but after that point, I really don't know what's going to happen. I honestly don't know if I am just wasting my time, energy, money doing this.. or if this is something real.

I don't know if this will become something big or barely anything.

Or something in between.

I have no answers. Only ideas.

But one thing is for sure.. if I didn't have this right now, I would have absolutely nothing.

Sitting in stillness for so many months- after a divorce, and suffering through the deepest heartbreak of my life.. if Allah didn't bring this into my life, I don't think I would be able to survive.

That is the truth.