I Surrendered.. Then Allah Showed Me The Truth

Do you want to know the moment when I realized something is happening to me- beyond the heartbreak, the tears, the pain, the desire, and the endless duas?

It was this moment. It was when I finally surrendered. 

I reached a point where I didn’t even want reunion anymore -I just wanted the truth. Up until then, I thought I was going through a normal heartbreak and then funniest thing of all- I thought I was living a normal life. 

This was the moment Allah woke me up to what I had been asleep to my entire life.

I still remember the moment very clearly. I was using the bathroom, completely surrendered. 

And it hit me. I didn’t understand what I was feeling. How was I feeling it? It’s like Allah was showing it me.. That it was Rafiq all along. I felt it in my heart. I felt it rise up to my chest. It was like Allah placed the knowing right in front of me-like he dropped it from the sky into my soul.

Every moment… every guy… every heartbreak…My husband and I dating, getting married…My travels to Tehran…Crossing paths with Rafiq…Him falling for me… me falling for him…Our confessions… and eventually, his silence.

Every thread of my life was woven to bring us together at the end.

Every single moment of my life was to bring us together at the end. Allah showed it to me. That Rafiq is my soul mate. He’s the man Allah chose for me in this dunya.

And it took me 28 years of being alive to know that. 

Allah lifted the curtain and revealed the story he had been writing behind the scenes all along. Rafiq wasn’t just a childhood friend. He wasn’t just a background character.He wasn’t just another guy.

He was written for me thousands of years before our souls were even placed in this dunya. It was him.It had been him all along. And I just didn’t know it.

That was the moment everything changed.

My real life, my marriage, my routines. Suddenly felt fake. And this truth Allah unveiled to me became the realest thing I had ever felt in my bones.

I felt it in my bones.That’s how real it was.

Out of this entire awakening,this is the one moment I will never forget.

It felt like someone snapped me awake.The truth exploded like a bomb.

And I finally saw.